My Personal Tough Decision

My Personal Tough Decision

I went silent on this blog for quite a while.  There was an upheaval (sudden change; disruption) in my place of business that had a serious affect on me.  I was very happy in my middle management position.  Although I am a natural leader, I never had the desire to be in the top echelon (level or rank) of my organization but some members of the new administration wanted me there.  I did not apply for the position the first time it was opened.  They closed it without interviews because they were not happy with the responses they had gotten.

I was then pulled aside by my boss for a heart to heart.  He told me how disappointed he was in me for not trying for the position, that I had the kind of experience and knowledge he was looking for and that would be beneficial for our place of business.  I have to give him kudos on the highly effective, manipulative tactic of, while praising me, making me feel I was being selfish with my knowledge.  Even though I saw it for what it was it still had the desired effect.  I felt I was not giving my all to the business that had given me so much information and experience in the first place.  I felt I was being selfish.

He then informed me that the position was going to be listed again and he hoped I would rethink my position.  Prior to this point I had already developed a great respect for this new administrator.  His skill in dealing with people in the nicest possible way while getting them to go in the direction he wanted them to only increased my admiration for him.  I promised I would give it serious thought over the weekend and would let him know my decision the following Monday.

Over the weekend I discussed it with my partner and drew up my pros and cons list to help me decide.  Here is where my personal epiphany (an illuminating discovery) came into play.  I posted an article in February of 2015 titled Tough Decisions.  In that post I suggest making a pros and cons list to help you visualize the situation.  While I stand by that as a very useful tool my cons list for this decision was easily three times longer than my pros list.

I finally tossed my lists aside and instead thought about my personality.  What is important to me.  What motivates me.  I have a strong sense of responsibility.  I am big on being professional and fair without losing touch with compassion.  Those things are important to me.  The business matters.  People matter.  But you have to take care of the business or it won’t be there to take care of the people so I lean towards what’s in the best interest of the business first with what’s in the best interest of the people an extremely close second.  This is not how the previous administration had approached their job and a lot of things had gone wrong.  I had pushed back in many instances of people not being treated fairly, of processes that were being done poorly and so on.

Now I was in a position of putting my money where my mouth was, so to speak.  If I was going to complain about things being wrong I should be willing to help correct them.  It was time to put up or shut up.  Well, shutting up is not my strong suit.  I applied for the position, went through some intense vetting but eventually was offered the position.

So what about my pros and cons lists?  Well, they did give me warnings of where I would have issues.  To this day I still despise having to drive through rush hour traffic.  It remains a con.  And there are other aspects (status or phase in which something appears or may be regarded) that I dislike but my core values have been met.  My sense of responsibility, my desire to protect the business and the people who work there, my need to work towards fairness have all helped to make me successful.  It was the right decision.


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